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[11 Nov 2006|12:58am] |
Chapter One
Adeline did not expect to see anything strange tonight, though strange had been redefined over and over again for her in the last few months. Her best friend had been going out of his way to avoid her on what seemed to be her worst days, the days when she seemed to need someone to talk to the most. The days when she just want someone to listen to her yell and then maybe go out for lunch and pretend like nothing happened. Today wasn't one of those days.
A simple walk was all that was on the agenda for this evening. But when she turned the corner in the garden and passed under the gold painted lattice, she was met with a sight of feathers and horns. There, sitting on the stone bench, was the bare back of a man with two magnificent, shinning, silver wings reaching out and brushing the ground behind him. He looked over his shoulder at her with strands of black hair in his eyes. "Good evening, dear Adeline." he whispered the words, but they rang like bells in her ears. It seemed to be his favorite trick.
"Requiem, what are you doing here?" Anger leaked out just a little into her voice. Adeline put her hands on her hips and rolled her eyes. Requiem stood up and faced her with a flutter of wings that kicked up a cloud of dust around his feet. "Did you forget the new moon, Adeline? We meet every new moon. Since you were thirteen-years-old. You find me beautiful on this night. You said those words to me so long ago." He stepped toward her and put a hand on her shoulder. He barely touched her but it sent a chill down her spine. Adeline looked up to see the empty sky, but the trees blocked her view.
She wrinkled her nose and then looked at Requiem's eyes and immediately wished that she hadn't. Every time that she looked into his honey-colored eyes, she was lost and it took all that she had to look away. It wasn't always like that. There was once a time when Adeline could look in his eyes and feel nothing pulling her in. Somewhere, in all the years that she'd known him that changed.
"You forgot." he didn't say the words but she heard them in her mind. That was something that he could always do, but he rarely used it. He usually used it when he wasn't sure how his voice would sound. He still sounded hurt. "I didn't forget that we meet on the new moon, I just didn't realize it was a new moon tonight."
He reached out his hand to her face and brushed along her cheek bone with his knuckles. Adeline grabbed his hand and pushed it away. "Don't touch me like that." she said holding his hand to his side.
"Sorry, darling." he said. "I have exciting news to tell you." both of his hands flew up to her arms and his wings fluttered again. He was trying to contain his excitement but it wasn't working.
"What is it?" She laughed.
"An angel walks among us." he smiled a wide, beautiful smile.
"Requiem, don't be silly. Angels always walk among us. Darling, you're an angel."
"Half-angel. And I know that angels surround you, but I tell you that an angel sleeps in your field houses."
She looked at him with puzzled eyes. "What do you mean?"
"Your father's new hire the one that cleans his stables and feeds his horses. Lukas. He's an angel."
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Adeline asked.
"I wanted to be sure, I sensed him the moment he stepped onto your property. But I wanted to be sure. So I waited until the new moon. I was out in the fields no more than twenty minutes ago and I saw his shinning wings. He's an Angel of Light, no less!" Requiem put his hands on his temples.
"You are getting awfully excited about this. What does this mean?" Adeline walked over to the stone bench and sat down. Requiem walked over to her and sat beside her. He put his hands over hers in his lap. "I am not sure, but angels do not come unsent. He is here for a reason, a good reason. To show you something, or me, or maybe even your father. Someone in the household is about to receive a personal message from God."
"Did you tell Alliance?" Adeline put a hand on Requiem's right shoulder.
"Not yet. You are the first person I've told." Requiem put his right hand over Adeline's. Adeline quickly pulled her hand away and put it in her lap.
"Let's go to him now." Adeline stood up and held out her hand.
"We can't leave now, it's nearly midnight." Requiem stayed seated. Adeline looked at him and put her hands on her hips.
"Since when has that stopped us before? Besides, no one will be expecting me back at the house soon." Adeline grabbed Requiem's hand. "Come on. I am sure that Alliance already knows something is going on."
Requiem shook his head and stood up. "Tell you what, I'll take you out to the field houses and you can see him. Then you can go with me to see Alliance in the morning. Fair?" Requiem brushed his knuckles along her cheekbone. Adeline took a step back from him. "Fine. Laying eyes on him is much more exciting then talking to Alliance anyway." Adeline started walking back up the path through the garden. Requiem laughed a deep, melodic laugh as he walked after her.
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Adeline pushed the tall grains of wheat aside to get a better look at the tall man basking in the moonlight. His white wings shimmered with the silver touch of the stars. He was muscular with a slight tan from working in the fields the whole day. He had longish blonde hair that fell in front of his eyes, forcing her to look that much harder to see his slender features and high cheekbones. He was wearing dark brown pants and a white shirt, unbuttoned with the sleeves rolled up over his elbows. He turned his face in their direction but did not see them. His lips were moving in a soundless motion. Adeline let out an audible gasp upon seeing just how handsome he was. "What is it?" Requiem asked, touching her shoulder. He was crouched behind her in the tall grains, looking over her shoulder, nearly leaning on her. "He's beautiful." Adeline whispered. She didn't know why she whispered, they were too far away for the beautiful angel to him them. "His wings look strong. I wonder what his name is."
"I have to speak with him." Adeline started to move forward in the wheat.
"No." Requiem grabbed her arm to stop her. "He will come to you when he is ready."
Adeline looked at Requiem over her shoulder. "How do you know that his message is for me?" She asked.
"Because I can read his lips. He's repeating your name over and over."
Adeline looked at him, straining her eyes to see his lips. But it was too dark and her eye sight was not as good as Requiem's.
"We should go back now."
"How long is he going to stand there like that? Calling my name into the night?" Adeline asked without taking her eyes off of the angel.
"Stop being dramatic. Let's go. The sooner you go to bed the sooner we can talk to Alliance." Requiem let go of her arm and grabbed her hand, pulling her back toward the house.
"That's just what parents say to make their children go to bed. I know better, Requiem." Adeline smiled at the back of his head.
Requiem didn't say anything; he just kept pulling Adeline through the wheat. Adeline craned her neck over her shoulder to look at the beautiful angel. He was looking in her direction. Adeline was sure that he was looking at her. Not her and Requiem, but just her.
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[30 Oct 2006|09:11am] |
i will always fall short of my brother...he's just better than me
i will always envy my little sister...for having a dad...even a deadbeat one...
i will always love my little brother...for being kind enough to lie...
i will always miss my mother...she was my rock...
i will always HATE richard kemper...for being a manipulator and a liar...when i say i hate him, it's like when i say i love michael...the words are not enough...i hope he burns...
for the first time in my life i actually, honestly hate someone...
it feels so strange...
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| Sundays... |
[25 Jun 2006|03:27pm] |
Sundays should always be like this....
so i am sitting on the back porch typing this...
mike's working in the backyard...right behind me....
we went to wal-mart....got some lunch...and then came home...
the laundry's almost done...
the kitchen's clean...
yep...i could do this...everyday...live here...
sounds good...let's do it...
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[10 Apr 2006|05:35pm] |
so i haven't updated in quite some time...i am not dead...just happy...
i went out to a motorcross track again today...it was dirty...now i am going to barbeque...geez, it's good to be home...
...so instead of an actual update i shall simply regurgitate the quote book onto you...
God like Zelda. A lot. -Dominic
This coming from a girl clinically diagnosed with crazy. -Me
If turtles don't have ears, how do their brains stay in? -Julie
You don't really know someone until they've crapped in your car. -Mom
If a guy knew stuff that was common knowledge for girls, he's be really smart. Or gay. -Alex F.
When your skin is dry your thumbs fly open. -Lizzie
Ewww! It's warm in there. -Ben S.
Four is four....that's what it is. -Retarded Animal Babies
I are wet and cold and sad. -Retarded Animal Babies
I thought you were going to try to say intelligent things today. -Ryan
You know why Hello Kitty doesn't have a mouth? 'Cause she speaks from her heart. -Ryan
I love it! It's mine! -Ryan
Everliving Catfish is not a good name for a band. Now if we were a colonized cult of fishermen it would be a different story. -Alex F.
Get your butt off my truffles! -Lizzie
I got you flowers. Crap! I just told you! -Tommy
Wearing anything a gay man would wear defintely floats my boat. -Me
You only like me because I'm a guy. -Tommy
If you were a hotdog, woulda eat yourself? I know I would. I would get some mustard and make myself taste all good. -Alex K.
I think I have another dead bug in my eye. -Kyle
You're usually there until...lots...at night. -Tommy
You can't even listen with your eyeballs! -Mathais
Yep, your eyes heard right. Assuming you have ears in your eyes, ya freak! -Roman
There's nudity, violence, and suggestive material. Bring the kids! -Chris E.
Don't oogle me when I know it! -Me
She yawned and I sniffed it. -Andria
Megan S.: If you love him it doesn't matter what your parents think. They'll die when you're married.
Tyler: Especially if you kill them.
Where do black people come from? I mean, besides Afria and God. -Andria
She left her fingernails in here. I think she lost them. -Mallory's dad
Can you be as old as you want to when you go to the movies with your mom? -Andria
There are plenty of reason to date me. To make your parents mad, sick enjoyment, you hate yourself, I don't know. -Ben S.
I'm only wrong because I don't have estrogen. I have pestrogen. -Adam
I'm the brunette, right? -Lissa
Everytime you eat bacon you're eating a karate pig. -Andrew
You were an accident! -Alex F.
I have bad news. You're an idiot. -Lizzie
Whoever wrote this was...um...a big bag of stupid. -Me
Don't sass me! Miss sassy pants pantser! -Ben S.
Skimpy limpy little shrimp. -some retarded book
There's going to be thirty sixth graders there. You know how annoying that's going to be? I bet they don't even wear deordorant. -Tommy
If that doesn't give you happy shiny people pants, I don't know what will. -Jim S.
Monobrow!! With three exclamations points! -Me
If you don't have anything nice to say, say it really really loud. -Jim S.
If you licked toe jam from between your toes, I would totally be gay. -Alex F.
Get off my penisula! -Justen
You're so much nicer than the people at Victoria's Secret. -Random guy
I would kinda like to kill myself. Can you just be a little bit killed? Or is that something that has to be done all the way? -Lizzie
Why do they call it attempted suicide? Isn't that just hurting yourself? -Ben S.
I won't stalk you. No matter how stalkable you are. -Tommy
Maybe it was so loud, he saw it! -Michelle
If we don't talk we'll end up in a terrible situation. It'll be a phone call here and there. And then just Christmas cards. And then my Russian orderly will hear me whisper your name on my death bed, just shrug and steal my shoes. -Ben S.
She was throwing a twenty-four hour, seven days a week bitter pity party, and people just got tired of coming. -Me
I learned not to jump off of roofs because it hurts. -John
You keep popping out of place because your body is fighting off tomatoes or something. -Mom
I should have been born a rapper. I'm so rapperous. -Sharon Osbourne
Every girl should have a boyfriend or two. It keeps those boys in line. I should know. I used to be one. -random old guy
If you can't find people to kill the time, find the time to kill people. -Jim S.
Trust me, pretty soon I'll be grabbing you. -Mark
So, we're teaching kids to work it? -Brady
Ben S: I wonder what it's like to be stupid. I mean really stupid. Do you think stupid people are even aware that they are stupid?
Lizzie: I bet smart people are wondering that about you right now.
This morning when I work up, the birdies were all chirping. And I think they were getting all freestyle with it too. Kinda like that movie 8 Mile. Only it was some birds though. -Roman
Be careful while I'm gone. Don't get run over. -random old guy
Ryan: Dude, that bunny totally lives in that tree.
Me: That's a bush.
Listen! This will explain everything. Twelve newborns are given to the wrong parents, daily. -Alex F.
We use up too much artistic effort in our dreams; in consequence our waking life is often poor. -Nietzsche
What's that sound? Oh it's just me blowing my own horn. Wait, that sounds gross. -Ben S.
Don't you have to have a beard to listen to jazz music? -Lexi
You're going to eat the freakin baby chicken! You're going to eat it, and you're going to like it! -Ben S.
Tommy M: Okay, he's gone.
Andrea: Let's make out!
Woo! It's a pimp! -Matt
Yes, it seems the pig had a rare disease that made its eyes explode from its head, resulting in a thing that makes pigs blind and dead. I call it "Blindeadpigginess". -Jhonen
I haven't seen you with my eyes in weeks! -Me
Spam is the devil's hamster! -Roman
Silly Mr. Chasez. Not all women dance with other women to get attention. Some women dance with other women because they wear flannel and play soft-ball. -Ben S.
People in Europe will love it. They believe in vampires and stuff. -Julie
I said shut up! What part of that don't you understand? The shut or the up? Choose now! And then shut up! -Alex F.
Dude, I totally aced my I.Q. test. -John
Everything is the trunk is supposed to be dead. -Stranger Than Fiction
I just come here to think and bury ex-girlfriends who spurned my undying love. That type of thing. -Connor Orberst
Some people think that I sit in a closet, eating people's souls while doing heroine and peeing on Christmas tress. -Macauly Culkin
People will totally drink your bath water. -Lizzie
This is my speech to you. You can mock them, even talk about doing horribly violent things to them...in that car. -Julie
The word deluxe reminds me of mac and cheese. -Alex F.
Having a pet rodent is unacceptable when you make millions of dollars. -Ben S.
Are they hetrosexual life partners? -Andrea
Straight guys are such whores. -Lizzie
Jessi (while watching Aladin) : But does the carpet need to sleep?
Me: Well, it doesn't have eyes.
It's a cartoon, there are deformed heads everywhere. -Justen
I would kiss your forehead, but I am afraid I would knock you over again. -Ben S.
I didn't swim with fish. It was all fake water. -Jim M.
I wasn't avoiding you. I just didn't want to talk to you or see you. -Alex
He just fell down. Really far. -Luke
Ryan: There's skin in PG movies.
Andria: There's skin in P movies.
They took all my blood out, now my bones are all skinny. -Kyle
Ask the president if I can move in with him. It would be so awesome to play football in the hallways of his house. -Goober
Poeple were mud-fighting and hippie dancing, which I think is illegal at a Christan concert. -Ben S.
Someone was sorely mistaken when they gave him permission to talk to me. That someone should die. Yes, I will kill them. -Me
A sexual Mr. Peanut is the last thing the world needs. -Lizzie
I was trying to kick your butt, but it jiggles to much. -John
Why they come from? -Ryan
It's always weird for me when old square looking dudes are into Marylin Manson. -Lexi
I tried to kill myself once. When I was twelve I tied my shoe laces to the ceiling fan and it didn't work because I broke the fan. I got grounded for a month and i had to buy a new ceiling fan. -some random kid
I happen to have a certain fondness for existing. Soda wouldn't have the same fizzy feeling if you were dead. Think of all the things you would miss. Cartoons, music, movies, video games, music, art, fingernail growth, sex...well perhaps not sex depending on how weird your mortician is. -Jhonen
Wait, we're an "us"? When did this happen? Who voted for this? Was Florida involved? -Tommy
Me: Look at those fancy curtains!
Ryan: Those are nice!
My plan is to move to Texas and start a dirt farm. Become a millionaire. Farming dirt. Yep. You can come with me. -Tommy
Usually when bad stuff happens to me I get whiney and write a song about it. But this time I said, "No, I am going to be assertive and be angry at her." Then I went to sleep. -Tommy
Why do people go on this show? He is cheating on you, she is lying, and he is not your baby's daddy. -Andria
You know clothes aren't expensive enough. People wear them too much. -Ben S.
I like to park here. It makes my car feel like a mountain climber. -Ben B.
I think your tastebuds are too tired to care how it tastes. -Brett
Will you get buried next to me? I want to walk through the pearly gates with a bombshell. -Alex F.
You can be as loud as you want to in here and they won't throw you out. It's not like Wal-Mart. -Ben at a club
I am really smiley. -Adam P.
She's from Briatan ya know. That's why she talks weird. She's got that English twang. Right? -Ben
I think you have a competitor in the mall. I'm going to go check them out and then bomb them. -random old guy
Adam P: All right I'm going to say it. Ok, I'm about to get some balls here.
Me: Really?
Adam P: Yeah, I'm gonna borrow some.
Me: From who?
Adam P: My imaginary friend.
that's not all of them but we shall resume on a later date...
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[25 Mar 2006|10:58pm] |
i think today is as good a day as any to express my patriotism. I am feeling especially patriotic as our president spoke well at tuesday's press conference and i have gotten back in touch with talk radio this week.
I love this, America. And its one of the few things that the word love does not come close to describing my feelings for it. It's simply not enough.
Tuesday our president was asked why he really wanted to go to war. And it goes without saying that liberals are never going to believe that we actually did find everything for WMD's in Iraq. The president answered this question in saying that no president wants war. He said on 9/11 our foreign policy changed and he was willing to take any measures to protect the American people. Oceans and former policies no longer protect us.
Stop pushing the image of the World Trade Center falling out of your mind.
Stop thinking like you did before 9/11.
It happened. We were attacked on our turf. Killers are indeed capable of taking innocent life.
Stop forgetting our enemy. Get focused or move to France.
Or better yet, strap on some combat boots and fight for our enemy. Because everytime you demean the president and twist stories to make him look weak, it's the same thing.
Sorry if this sounds angry...it didn't start out that way.
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| Sunday Surprise!!! |
[19 Mar 2006|08:07pm] |
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hello....!!!
today was amazing...
...it was all a surprise...
...it started with a baby dedication at church...Julie's beautiful son...
...and then i changed into my amazing white dress...and mike drove me downtown...
...and i have no idea where we're going...
...we get to the fox...
...and if you've never been there...i cannot explain how gorgeous it is inside...
...he took me to see Rent...
...can you believe that...
...my favorite show ever...
...i loved it...
...and then we went to dinner at the Top of the Riverfront 360 resturant...
...its at the top of the Millenium hotel...and it spins...
...it takes ninety minutes to spin all the way around...so it's not like a roller coaster of something...
...the dinner was so good...
...and then we got ice cream at cold stone...
...it was such and amazing evening...i loved it...
...that's all...
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| This is why i love jess... |
[18 Mar 2006|10:58pm] |
this is what she wrote in her about me section...
I am Jess. Jessica if you want to get technichal.
I like clothes that have been worn, old ladies at St Vinnies and mangoes.
I like music.
I love music.
I like art and tearing my clothes apart, not neccessarily while they are on me.
I sometimes get scared of microwaves or play games with them, if you understand what I'm talking about, I love you.
I have a bad habit of sending emails to myself.
I put stupid bright colours through my hair alot.
I've broken both my arms, but not at the same time.
I walked into a pole at school once. Seth laughed.
Immunizations are exciting.
I am not subtle.
I fight with myself.
Sometimes I'm too understanding.
I keep everything. I can't throw anything out.
I'm a little bit of a passive stamp and coin collector. Shutup. It's cool.
I hate licorice, marzipan and everything cherry flavoured except chuppa-chups.
I'm not stupid, but maybe a little bit imcompetent.
I'm clumsy if you're watching.
I like photos, but it takes alot of effort for me to have a nice, normal, plesant face in them.
I don't want to grow up.
I don't trust myself.
I don't know what I look like.
And now you know me.
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| It Is Done!!!!! |
[18 Mar 2006|10:55pm] |
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i had an amazing morning....
...i completed my chuck palahniuk collection...
...i have been trying since october last year...
...i would go into borders and look in the fiction section all the time...
...and where did they stick this dang book...
...in the travel writing section...
...because its a book about portland, OR...
...it makes you want to move there...
...even though portland is extremely dirty...
...in more ways than one...
...i still would like to visit because of all the random stuff that happens there...
...now i am at mike's house...
...getting ready to watch walk the line...
...i am happy...
...extremely...
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[15 Mar 2006|07:07pm] |
jessi made this for me....wooo!
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ya know what...i had given up on LJ and moved on to xanga and myspace...but a certain someone...::cough cough:: chris ::cough cough::...excuse me...insisted that LJ was better and i should still update here...but that certain someone...::cough cough:: chris ::cough cough::...i must be coming down with someting...never comments on anything i write...
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| The Blonde Betrayal |
[08 Mar 2006|06:14pm] |
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This musing is an experiment…I forget what they call it, but it’s when you write from someone else’s perspective…here goes…
Her hair stretched out for miles and so did her legs.
She wasn’t skinny but she wasn’t obese either.
She was the perfect size for being beautiful and 5’10” in California.
Her lips were every bit bee-stung.
She had intoxicating cat-eyes.
They were so dark they looked black.
A sparkling black stare to match the sequins on her dress.
She was perfect looking.
Imagine her in a wedding dress.
Something Vera Wang of maybe even something Jessica McClintock.
But that’s all wrong.
She is anything but “off-the-rack”.
Her very image for the whole world to see.
It’s like a perfect, blonde betrayal.
“This is what I was doing while I was away.”
Tears are only hot when you are angry.
“I wasn’t thinking of you.”
Here's another attempt at the short story thing...it isn't nearly as long as the other one...but it really happened to me...so i like it...
"The vacuum's still in the middle of the floor."
This is the part where she kicks off her shoes.
"Yeah, I know. I'm too busy to clean."
This is the part where his keys hit the counter.
She walked over to the vacuum still plugged in.
"How do you turn it on?"
This is the part where she searches for the switch.
"You're so cute."
This is the part where he laughs and turns it on.
"Awesome."
This is the part where she starts to clean.
This is the part where he smiles.
"I feel bad that you're cleaning my place."
This is the part where she says, "Don't,"
"You are the most beautiful thing in the world."
This is the part where she smiles as he leaves the room.
This is the part where she gets on the floor to vacuum under the couch.
This is the part where he unplugs the vacuum.
"Hey I'm not done."
This is the part where she stands up.
This is the part where he walks over to her.
This is the part where he puts an arm around her waist.
This is the part where he whispers in her ear, "I'm in love with you."
This is the part where she throws her arms around his neck.
This is the part where she thinks, this will be a good story.
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[01 Mar 2006|04:02pm] |
ok this is for everyone that wants to know what the freakin heck is my deal with alex...alex ferguson...not to be confused with alex van almsick...just so ya know...
so the story really starts four years ago...but i won't go into detail...we were in a band together and he we were just friends at this point...two of our bandmates...joel and lizzie were dating each other...well that next summer joel broke up with lizzie because he came out of the closet...so lizzie and alex started dating...they dated for almost two years and then got engaged...well around this time...alex started telling me that he was in love wtih me...so about four months before the wedding he broke up with lizzie and we started dating...and it was pretty perfect for about three weeks...alex went to go spend new year's eve '04 with his dad in japan...he calls me at two in the morning to tell me that he slept with someone over there...not just one but two girls...nice...but we still dated after that...it was stupid i know...but i really loved him so i stayed wtih him...then about a week later i was at his house and i got cold so i put on one of his hoodies and i found a note in his pocket from lizzie...it was all about how she kept the wedding plans on just like he asked her and she was waiting for him to get me out of his system...so i made him call her in front of me to tell her things we through...but i had had it so i left him...about a month later at a party at joel's house he came up to me when i was getting my coat out of joel's bedroom and he started crying and telling me how much he still loved me...then he slammed me up against a wall...so i told him never to talk to me again...i started ignoring his phone calls and e-mails and letters...eventually they stopped and he started seeing someone else...so for nine months i didn't talk to him...then about three months ago we started trying to be friends again...i was still in love with him...eventually he got around to saying he was still in love wtih me...so we went out on a date...then i saw how he looked at me...not the same as he used to...he used to look at me like i was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen...now he just looked at me...then he stopped calling...started saying that he didn't want anything serious...that i needed to chill out...but ya know i just can't do that...so i'm giving up on him...even as friends...i haven't heard from him in over a week...so i am just done...that's all...
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i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
...i'm pretty excited...
...and i am being taken out for ice cream...how 1950's is that?
...it's sweet...i like it...
...i am happy today...it's beautiful outside...i get to see mike...i get ice cream...and...
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
i get to ride a motorcycle today!!!!
...ok i promise i won't do that again...
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[27 Feb 2006|12:28pm] |
so i had a pretty awesome weeked...
...if you ever want to watch a movie called the dawn...shoot yourself in the face...it will be less painful...watch the island instead...which is what i did on friday with mike...it's my favorite movie ever...amazing direction and breath taking cinematogrophy...i could go on all day about it...but i won't...i love it...
...on saturday i worked all day...open to close...elven and half hours...and mike brought me dinner...steak...i looooovvvveeee steak...it was really sweet of him...and then he gave me a ride home...
...on sunday i had the best day of my life ever...not really but it was pretty close...i went to church with mike and then we drove down to this motorcross track with some of his friends and their girlfriends and we all rode four wheelers while the boys rode dirt bikes...it was so much fun...i got to go on the dirt bike for a while too...i want one...in red...yeah...i am so excited about this weekend too...i get to go on mike's street bike if it's still warm outside...you have no idea how freakin excited i about riding that motorcycle...i can't wait...
...so my weekend was pretty awesome...every weekend should be like that...
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ok this is for everyone that wants to know what the freakin heck is my deal with alex...alex ferguson...not to be confused with alex van almsick...just so ya know...
so the story really starts four years ago...but i won't go into detail...we were in a band together and he we were just friends at this point...two of our bandmates...joel and lizzie were dating each other...well that next summer joel broke up with lizzie because he came out of the closet...so lizzie and alex started dating...they dated for almost two years and then got engaged...well around this time...alex started telling me that he was in love wtih me...so about four months before the wedding he broke up with lizzie and we started dating...and it was pretty perfect for about three weeks...alex went to go spend new year's eve '04 with his dad in japan...he calls me at two in the morning to tell me that he slept with someone over there...not just one but two girls...nice...but we still dated after that...it was stupid i know...but i really loved him so i stayed wtih him...then about a week later i was at his house and i got cold so i put on one of his hoodies and i found a note in his pocket from lizzie...it was all about how she kept the wedding plans on just like he asked her and she was waiting for him to get me out of his system...so i made him call her in front of me to tell her things we through...but i had had it so i left him...about a month later at a party at joel's house he came up to me when i was getting my coat out of joel's bedroom and he started crying and telling me how much he still loved me...then he slammed me up against a wall...so i told him never to talk to me again...i started ignoring his phone calls and e-mails and letters...eventually they stopped and he started seeing someone else...so for nine months i didn't talk to him...then about three months ago we started trying to be friends again...i was still in love with him...eventually he got around to saying he was still in love wtih me...so we went out on a date...then i saw how he looked at me...not the same as he used to...he used to look at me like i was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen...now he just looked at me...then he stopped calling...started saying that he didn't want anything serious...that i needed to chill out...but ya know i just can't do that...so i'm giving up on him...even as friends...i haven't heard from him in over a week...so i am just done...that's all...
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
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today, i am planning on robbing a bank...
...not really...but would you honestly be surprised if i was?
...anyways...i'm seeing mike again tonight...we're going to go see a movie after i get off of work tonight...that's all...
...still no word from alex...so i'm offically giving up on him...even as friends...i just can't do it...but seriously,it's me, christine, so we all know that once he calls me that will all change...
...so apparently when i am tired i let my guard down...which i hate...and i told mike that i liked him...and then i freaked out and got off the phone as soon as possible...because seriously, once again...it's me...and when does christine ever share her feelings about someone to them...verbally...uh, let's try never...yep...never...
...ok so i promise to never type in third person on here agian...kinda creeps me out...
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